Why these poems to the Goddess?
According to the ancient traditions of India, the goddess Kālī can be worshipped as mother, child or consort. She is most often worshipped as Mother Kālī (Mā Kālī), but my wish is to worship her as consort.
I had long sought to be initiated into tantra. The first attempt was made in 1994 in Varanasi where Vagish Shastri, an eminent scholar, initiated me with full ceremony into tantra. This event was reported in the local newspaper; it was also celebrated with others of his disciples at a dinner afterwards. The next day he asked me what I had dreamed during the night. This dream is important in the Hindu tradition since the dream indicates what has really happened. But I had dreamed nothing. On another occasion I sought initiation in 2003 in Bhubaneswar by Harsa to whom Bettina Bäumer had introduced me. This was done with due ceremony, but here too nothing happened.
At the meeting with Suramishra on Monday 16 January 2012 I was given permission to worship Kālī as consort, which produced an immense reaction one night. The opening poem of the series reflects this experience. This, I consider to be my true tantric initiation.
The Christian teaching of the Spirit has been undeveloped, especially in the West. It can be better understood in the light of the teaching of Kālī as consort in the tantric context. This is the purpose of these poems, which are shared with you for your wise assessment.
These ‘poems’ reflect that exploration, and are the expression of spontaneous illuminations in prayer, written down at great speed.
I call them tantric poems – I am both priest of the Catholic Church and tantrika.